I want to believe in people, in everyone--
like how kids believe in fairy tales and Santa Claus
like how religious zealots believe in their creed
I want to trust people... again
I want to know that when I talk to you,
you won't lie to me because you so like to lie to yourself

5/7/10



I want to have that innocent trust again
is that an innocence lost or ignorance grown out of?
I was so closed off and introverted for so many years
And just as I was becoming such an open book, to be betrayed as I was,
and the frequency in such a short time, makes me wonder:
Was I right before to be so shut off and cautious?

5/13/10